MoonClan
Why trust anyone implicitly? Even the gods are flawed.
Posts: 65
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Played By: Sarmenti
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Post by Needlesong& on Aug 3, 2022 18:06:39 GMT -6
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| Moonclan warrior - 39 - he/it
talks like "this" - attacks like this
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It was difficult to admit sometimes, but Needlesong found the warriors den incredibly claustrophobic to sleep in. He liked being around other cats, sure, but this was too much. He couldn't stay here.
Slowly, he rose from his spot, looking around before slowly making his way outside, wincing and freezing when he accidentally stumbled over a sleeping cat, "foxdung," he mumbled, getting up after a short moment, hoping he hadn't disturbed whoever it was as he hurriedly made his way out, breathing in deep when he could feel the cold air on his back again.
He looked towards the edge of the camp, licking his lips with thought as he contemplated going on a walk to ease his nerves. It sounded nice, but going alone might be too dangerous, he reasoned, huffing to himself before starting to pace around the camp, trying to make as little noise as possible.
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MoonClan
High Position
head in the clouds, but never the stars
Posts: 144
Pronouns: She/They
Played By: VioCrow
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Post by Foxlily on Aug 6, 2022 16:16:40 GMT -6
｡☆✼★━━━━ Foxlily ━━━━★✼☆｡ She watched cautiously from the edge of her den, not wanting to scare Needlesong but worried all the same. It was a sleepless night for her - it was always difficult, but lately the nights had been tougher - and it hadn’t been difficult to catch the sound of another cat wandering the camp. Usually, she paid it no mind. Usually just someone who got up for a brief moment and would go back to sleep. What had caught her attention was the continued walking, pacing - it struck her as unusual. Watching for a few silent moments, she finally exited the den, hoping her bright fur would give her away without needing to risk waking up any other cats or scaring Needlesong. “Is something wrong, Needlesong?,” Foxlily whispered as she approached. “You’re free to tell me if something’s bothering you. If it isn’t about your health I might not be able to fix it, but I can certainly listen and give you a little bit of company.” |
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MoonClan
Why trust anyone implicitly? Even the gods are flawed.
Posts: 65
Pronouns: he/it
Played By: Sarmenti
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Post by Needlesong& on Aug 6, 2022 21:44:14 GMT -6
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talks like "this" - attacks like this
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He froze a moment when he heard her, having been entirely within his own mind at the time, “ah- no. I’m… Well I’m not fine but I don’t have any… Physical illness going on. Not as far as I’m aware, at least.” He glanced back at the warriors den, “I don’t know, it just doesn’t feel… Safe for me to be in there. I’m not worried about being attacked or anything- well, maybe a little bit but I know that at least most of my fellow warriors are honorable cats who would never do such a thing and so on and so forth.” He grumbled, sounding more like he was repeating someone else’s words rather than expressing his true thoughts on the matter.
He let out a small huff. “It just feels awfully… I don’t know. I start seizing up and feeling like I can’t breathe proper when there are too many cats on too many sides of me, you know? I feel… Boxed in. Trapped, I guess.” He shrugged, bristling a little at the thought that came to his mind as he let out a defeated sigh, “maybe I’m just not fit for clan life. I’m not a fighter, I spend most of my time away from here because being in camp feels way too cramped for my sorry mind, and I’ve only participated in patrols I’m required to be a part of.” He huffed, “I’m moral support at best, in most cases.”
He paused a long moment, shamefully sitting down, “and while I could, in theory, take care of myself just fine, I find myself to be far too much of a coward to even consider leaving.” He growled, more angry at himself than anyone else, “I enjoy the community and all but I worry about being a parasite. You feel me?”
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MoonClan
High Position
head in the clouds, but never the stars
Posts: 144
Pronouns: She/They
Played By: VioCrow
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Post by Foxlily on Aug 8, 2022 0:16:18 GMT -6
｡☆✼★━━━━ Foxlily ━━━━★✼☆｡ They gave a long exhale at the end of Needlesong’s explanation. That was a little too relatable, though she didn’t know how to vocalize that without it sounding… weird coming from a medicine cat. Well, it was worth a shot, right? “I do,” Foxlily finally answered. “I don’t like to be alone, but when I was an apprentice I found that den to be… suffocating. It felt lonely at times in the medicine den, especially before I got an apprentice, but… in some ways, it was an improvement.” She shook her head and laughed gently. “Of course, I would never have said anything as an apprentice. I was very… well, we’ll say intense. If it helps in some way, Needlesong, I don’t think you’re a parasite at all. If you want, you can sleep in my den? I know camp itself can feel crowded, but maybe we could go walk around first and it’ll help? The medicine den can fit a lot of cats - it has to be able to, for battles and such - and it’s just Pantherpaw and me right now. We’ve got plenty of room.” She tilted her head with a pause. “Or, well, I could give you poppy seeds but I wouldn’t want to get you used to them. They can make you drowsy even the next day. Maybe lavender…” She shook her head again. “I’m sure we can figure something out for you! Something that helps you feel your place here.” |
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MoonClan
Why trust anyone implicitly? Even the gods are flawed.
Posts: 65
Pronouns: he/it
Played By: Sarmenti
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Post by Needlesong& on Aug 8, 2022 16:34:42 GMT -6
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| Moonclan warrior - 39 - he/it
talks like "this" - attacks like this
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He considered, then hesitated a moment, “I don’t know about… Medicating. I wouldn’t want to become dependent on anything that I wouldn’t be able to gather on my own.” He mumbled, looking away, “we could certainly try the medicine den, though. I’ll find a nice corner to tuck myself away in, I think.” He chuckled, “but at the same time, I do want to sleep under the open sky on nights like these… But I know the territory is a little too dangerous to venture alone, much less sleep in.”
He gave a defeated shrug and a half-hearted smile, “I appreciate the help, though. I really do. But you don’t need to go out of your way for me. I’ve handled myself just fine so far.” He bitterly chuckled, “paranoia and anxiety never looked good on me anyway.” |
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MoonClan
High Position
head in the clouds, but never the stars
Posts: 144
Pronouns: She/They
Played By: VioCrow
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Post by Foxlily on Aug 8, 2022 19:05:54 GMT -6
｡☆✼★━━━━ Foxlily ━━━━★✼☆｡ “That’s not what Clans are for,” she chided, ears flattening in her concern as Needlesong seemed to decide on dismissing the ordeal all together. Foxlily elaborated more gently, “we’re meant to look out for one another. You can always talk to me, Needlesong, I’ll listen if that’s all I can do to help. If there’s anything else I can do to help, though, you can bet I’ll try it.”They cast their gaze into the night sky outside the camp, humming idly in consideration. “Like I said, I’d accompany you to take a walk before we go back to the den, if that’s what you want. I could even show you where to find lavender, it’s… not quite medicine the way poppy seeds are, but the scent tends to make cats feel relaxed. Honestly, personally, I’d probably need a forest full of lavender before I neared anything close to calm, but I’ve been an anxious wreck ever since I became the medicine cat.” She laughed gently at the last statement, reflecting on the ways that time changed a cat. “Were you always like this, or did this start after you joined MoonClan?” |
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MoonClan
Why trust anyone implicitly? Even the gods are flawed.
Posts: 65
Pronouns: he/it
Played By: Sarmenti
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Post by Needlesong& on Aug 9, 2022 14:48:04 GMT -6
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| Moonclan warrior - 39 - he/it
talks like "this" - attacks like this
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He let out an embarrassed little huff, looking away, "I know, I know, but I take so much more than I give, it's really not fair for you to spend this many resources on me with how much you work already-" he began to complain, then shook his head, "nevermind, don't- don't think about what I just said too hard." He grumbled.
"I guess I was always like this, in some regard," he scratched himself behind the ear as he explained, "I dunno. Most of my relationships have been a give and take, so I often feel like I'm not giving a lot."
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MoonClan
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Played By: Reynauld
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Post by Owlwhisker on Aug 9, 2022 19:06:32 GMT -6
╡│ OWLWHISKER │╞
moonclan ─ he/she ─ warrior/monarch Owlwhisker was tired, of course. He had been very tired, in fact, for the past four moons or so as he took care of Nettlekit and Phosphorkit. Not that he minded too much, raising the two kits had felt like his personal calling. But, right now, he was tired and yet restless, the moons in the nursery catching up. He had merely planned on talking a short walk from camp to one landmark to camp again, but as he slipped out and heard conversation he took pause. Ah, that was Foxlily and Needlesong...
"Is... Is everything alright?" he murmured, just loud enough for the other two to hear. He hadn't heard much of the conversation, but everyone seemed quite exhausted and depressed in his opinion, not that he'd mention that out loud. "If this is something important between you two, I don't want to intrude..." talks in "bold #ffcc1d" ─ attacks in bold italic #ffcc1d
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MoonClan
Why trust anyone implicitly? Even the gods are flawed.
Posts: 65
Pronouns: he/it
Played By: Sarmenti
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Post by Needlesong& on Aug 9, 2022 19:17:09 GMT -6
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| Moonclan warrior - 39 - he/it
talks like "this" - attacks like this
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Needlesong almost jumped out of his skin at the sound of a new voice, struggling to find his voice for a second “n-no, no, everything is fine, uh- just sleepless, is all. Sleeping while being surrounded by all sides gives me horrible anxiety and paranoia and I worry I might do something and-“ he quickly shut up, realizing he was spilling details he wasn’t meaning to in his frazzled state, “ignore that last part.” He hurriedly added.
”Foxlily here was just trying to help me out, is all.” He hoped the medicine cat in question would catch the hint that he really wanted to keep this on the down low, if at all possible. |
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MoonClan
High Position
head in the clouds, but never the stars
Posts: 144
Pronouns: She/They
Played By: VioCrow
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Post by Foxlily on Aug 10, 2022 1:57:58 GMT -6
｡☆✼★━━━━ Foxlily ━━━━★✼☆｡ Prone to doing so, Foxlily leapt an incredible height when she heard the sound of another cat, made all the worse by what she felt to be a confidential conversation. Fur sticking up higher than StarClan, she turned quickly to face the new voice. She relaxed a bit, fur smoothing slightly. It was only Owlwhisker. The words she had prepared for Needlesong drifted out of her head as she tried to back up… whatever it was Needlesong was saying. She might have to talk to him about that later, the frantic words briefly confusing the point in her head. Oh right, secrecy. “You didn’t intrude,” she reassured to Owlwhisker. “Needlesong and I are just having a conversation, I’m trying to help him out, you know - normal Clan stuff. How about you? What brings you out of the nursery so late? Everything alright?” She didn’t want to neglect Needlesong, but if Owlwhisker or the kits or any of their denmates were sick, well… she couldn’t very well ignore them. She was the only full fledged medicine cat in the Clan, after all. |
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MoonClan
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Played By: Reynauld
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Post by Owlwhisker on Aug 10, 2022 15:31:27 GMT -6
╡│ OWLWHISKER │╞
moonclan ─ he/she ─ warrior/monarch The tom blinked a little, giving a small tilt of his head and a concerned glance to Needlesong before it passed over to Foxlily to answer her. "Oh, yes, everything is fine. I needed to stretch my legs a little before I put myself to sleep." He took a short pause to look between them, that worried expression never leaving him. "... Is there anything I could help with? The kits can be pawfuls but I have more free time than it may seem."
He wasn't normally quite so pushy to help, but he deemed Needlesong a friend in the moments they talked to each other, their status as clanmates aside. If something was troubling the younger warrior, then Owlwhisker felt it right to be there for him. "... I won't mention anything to anyone else unless I need to." talks in "bold #ffcc1d" ─ attacks in bold italic #ffcc1d
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MoonClan
Why trust anyone implicitly? Even the gods are flawed.
Posts: 65
Pronouns: he/it
Played By: Sarmenti
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Post by Needlesong& on Aug 10, 2022 16:37:00 GMT -6
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| Moonclan warrior - 39 - he/it
talks like "this" - attacks like this
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Needlesong was apprehensive, to say the least. He liked Owlwhisker, sure, enjoyed his presence and her wise words, but he hated spilling his heart to anyone. His spill to Foxlily may only have been half-accidental, but he had still spilled more than he meant to. Swallowing hard, he responded, forcing the words to fall from his tongue. "I-" he swallowed again "I'm fine."
The words were hard to force out, harder than anticipated, really. But he didn't want to be interrogated on his anxieties and traumas right now, and the pushing was really only making things worse as he begun to back away just a step or two, "you needn't concern yourself with me." He wheezed out, feeling the anxiety coil tight around his heart, choking him where he stood.
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MoonClan
High Position
head in the clouds, but never the stars
Posts: 144
Pronouns: She/They
Played By: VioCrow
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Post by Foxlily on Aug 10, 2022 19:56:57 GMT -6
｡☆✼★━━━━ Foxlily ━━━━★✼☆｡ Needlesong's response surprised her, eyes darting briefly to Owlwhisker before returning her attention to Needlesong. Seeing him back away, they didn't dare get nearer. “Needlesong, take a deep breath, okay? You need air,” she instructed gently. “Just take a moment to focus on breathing. Slow breaths, in and out.” She kept her tone gentle, lowering her body just slightly so that she was closer to Needlesong's eye level. Outwardly, she kept herself calm. It wouldn't help to panic. All the same, she was prepared to approach if they deemed that that was what he needed. They looked at Owlwhisker from the side of their eyes, hoping he knew how to handle situations like this. |
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MoonClan
Posts: 8
Pronouns: He/She
Played By: Reynauld
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Post by Owlwhisker on Aug 10, 2022 21:02:50 GMT -6
╡│ OWLWHISKER │╞
moonclan ─ he/she ─ warrior/monarch A flicker of recognition lit Owlwhisker's eyes before he took careful steps closer, trying to just get up near enough where he could press his nose to the other cat's forehead. Perhaps the gesture was more formally affectionate then he maybe intended, but this had always worked on kits and his old companions when he spent his days with them. "Hey, hey... just breathe... I'm not asking for you to tell me anything you don't want to Needlesong."
He wasn't going to push it anymore than he was now, no matter how badly he may want to welcome Needlesong into a nest and relax with him, or how much he wanted him to tell him what was truly happening. No, that would only serve to worsen the warrior's fragile state. Throughout all this, he left the option to move away; his touch was barely a breath, and while he would welcome him to sit with him to relax, he decided against it in case Needelsong proved too flighty in the moment. talks in "bold #ffcc1d" ─ attacks in bold italic #ffcc1d
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MoonClan
Why trust anyone implicitly? Even the gods are flawed.
Posts: 65
Pronouns: he/it
Played By: Sarmenti
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Post by Needlesong& on Aug 11, 2022 5:40:24 GMT -6
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| Moonclan warrior - 39 - he/it
talks like "this" - attacks like this
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The warrior froze a long moment, eyes darting to Owlwhisker, to Foxlily, and then back to Owlwhisker, completely forgetting to breathe for a moment before he pushed his head against Owlwhisker’s chest, trying to match his own, wheezing breaths with hers, not able to bring himself to care about how intimate the gesture might be if it meant he could relieve the sting in his lungs.
“Sorry,” he wheezed out after a moment, coughing as it threw off his pace and he had to take another moment to focus on breathing deep, “I never wanted either of you to see me like this.” He mewed bitterly, nudging himself further against Owlwhisker’s chest to hide the tears that were starting to well up in his eyes. |
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