SunClan
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Post by Tinyleaf on Jul 17, 2022 2:58:52 GMT -6
Tinyleaf's forehead furrowed, turning the sparse striping over his eyes into little zigzags. "Nobody's looking down on anyone. Especially not you. You've always been a valuable asset to the clan, Honeyflare, and I've seen as much when we've worked together. It's not defense to tell you the truth." He didn't anticipate things taking this route when the other warrior had approached him- he'd just been happy to get a break from the usual pressures of clan life without Beestar, to find someone to talk to who just wanted to talk. Nothing more or less. And yet... That's not how it was. Something weird was going on here. And strangely, it made his head hurt to think it was going on without his knowledge, like there was some sort of rift in Sunclan that had been hidden away beneath his radar. For how long?
It was scary in a new way. Scary for him, putting that falling feeling in his chest the same way Fawnheart had been doing recently, talking about things like change and priority. He didn't like it. Trying to fight back to a smile, making his frown twist into little more than a pout, he dropped his gaze lamely so that he might escape the incompatibility of Honeyflare's stubborn retort. Looked at the bird. He didn't feel very hungry anymore.
"You still haven't told me what you're protecting us against. We're not.. in trouble. How can you know what you're doing is right if you're not telling anyone? If- If all you're going by is your own judgement, that's not much of a justification. It's easy for one cat to be wrong, especially without others to notice for you. That's why we're a clan. We're supposed to work together to keep each other on the right track..."
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Post by Honeyflare on Jul 17, 2022 3:35:53 GMT -6
»»——— Honeyflare ———«« Oh, this really wasn’t where he’d intended things going. He felt restless in his pelt, shifting his paws as he thought. He had half a mind to simply dart off, try to run until his problems disappeared and he couldn’t run anymore. That wasn’t much good, though, because he was already sore from doing a day’s worth of patrols on his own, and he knew logically that running wouldn’t take him far. Also, because that might cause a chase and take the attention of the whole Clan, and then- no, he didn’t want to mess with all of that. “I haven’t done anything yet, relax. It’s- it’s okay. It was a dumb idea, anyway, I’m sorry to stress you out like that Tinyleaf. I guess I got carried away with my thoughts.” He stretched, like the awkwardness might slip out of his body if it was loose enough. “It’s like you said, right? We need other cats to keep us in check? Sometimes you get lost in thought and you just need a conversation to remind you of the reality.”With another good stretch, he laid down casually, wishing desperately to turn the conversation into something normal. He’d rather talk about the weather or whatever it was cats with nothing to say but wanted to talk talked about. Way to start off on the wrong paw. He glanced at the bird that seemed to become a subject of disinterest. “Is bird your preferred prey?,” he asked with a surprising amount of idle interest. Wow, maybe one day he’d learn to be casual. He + Single + Bi
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SunClan
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Post by Tinyleaf on Jul 17, 2022 14:45:50 GMT -6
It was an obvious distraction. Tinyleaf had done enough talking to cats who wanted to be left alone (usually because it was him with them) that he wasn't so dumb as to take Honeyflare's sudden surrender at face value. And yet.
He settled down next to him, uncertainty dropping him to his belly like a heavy rock in a pond. As much as he knew it was his responsibility to push and prod and even report to a superior about these kind of weird behaviors, who would he tell? Without any details, any other cat would just dismiss Honeyflare's behavior to erratic grief. Impulses that would lead nowhere, just a bit of lashing out. But Tinyflare could tell it ran much deeper than that. Recognized the tone of the other's voice like an echo from his own past, and felt more than anything else that something was absolutely going to happen.
And he was so tired of being part of happenings.
Tinyleaf made no move to pick at his bird, only cast a sidelong glance at his regretful companion. "It's my second favorite," His mew found itself, laden with new energy that he didn't have to dig for, only tap into the endless reservoir at his core where the desperate desire to throw his worries away resided like a 24/7 woodchipper. Gratefully, guiltily, he let the comfort of their shared lie soothe the dark swirling of his headspace. "You can taste the breeze, I always say."
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Post by Honeyflare on Jul 17, 2022 20:36:38 GMT -6
»»——— Honeyflare ———«« Glad to try to set aside the tension - fake it until you make it, right? - he smiled with genuine amusement. “Maybe next time I eat a bird, I’ll pay attention for that breeze flavor, then. I guess I’ve never noticed it.” The breeze sounded like it should taste like freedom, but what exactly that tasted like - or even truly looked like - Honeyflare couldn’t even begin to guess. “Then… what’s your actual favorite? I can’t imagine what might be a more interesting flavor than the breeze. You make it sound… refreshing.” He paused for a moment, reflecting on the statement. “I guess maybe that’s because I just haven’t noticed, so I don’t know what it tastes like.” He paused a little longer this time. Staring intently at his paws, like they might have the answer to some sort of ancient question, he finally spoke again. “… I am sorry, by the way. I just wanted to have a normal discussion, I think I messed it up. I don’t think I know how to not be defensive.” He + Single + Bi
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SunClan
i stop to smell the roses; my body decomposes
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Post by Tinyleaf on Jul 18, 2022 1:00:17 GMT -6
Being offered a smile seemed to put Tinyleaf more at ease, shown in the way he turned his head more readily to look at his clanmate head-on. Encouraged now that Honeyflare hadn't just packed up and left at the nearest sign of trouble, he seemed to forget the prior friction entirely. "You don't need to apologize," he replied, smile shrinking into something slighter- more genuine?- as he dismissed the tabby's worries, nudging a ginger paw to bump gently at the other's bronze one. "It can be hard to voice the things in our heads. We think in all kinds of ways, and then we have to flatten it all into a few sentences for other people to understand... it loses a lot of shape when you have to confine it to language. For what it's worth, I don't think you messed anything up at all, so you're probably doing better than you thought!"
Then, like a cloud passing across the sun, that instance of quieter understanding had slipped away in a full frontal shift to idle conversation, accompanied by the broadening of Tinyleaf's grin as he shifted his paw back to prod the avian. "But, if you're still interested, birds tend to have a lighter, more delicate flavor, is what I've noticed! Compared to most land prey, anyway. Maybe it's because birds have to be light to fly? Or something... If you want, I can divide some for you right now." He was already in motion before an answer could be given, lowering his head to finally finish the plucking process as he continued speaking between spats of feathers. "But- My favorite is actually squirrel, like the one I brought back! Climbing animals are just so fun to catch, which I think is half the reason they taste as good, but during greenleaf they're also super flavorful with the bounty of the forest in them- Ah-"
At the far end of the bird, where he pulled at some of the tinier, downier feathers near the bases of the wings, he suddenly came away with a patch of fluff much greater than what he'd intended, and almost immediately sneezed when they inevitably tickled his nose, sending the down scattering between the two of them like winter had come early. Silenced by his own precipitation, Tinyleaf marveled wide-eyed at the descending tufts.
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Post by Honeyflare on Jul 18, 2022 3:44:57 GMT -6
»»——— Honeyflare ———«« He found a little bit of reassurance in Tinyleaf’s words - and even more so in the consequential casual conversationalism that came from him. So it seemed he hadn’t chased away the blotchy coated cat with his vague words - he’d have to be more careful. Even more careful in what he actually did, in case Tinyleaf wasn’t entirely sold on it. Also so that he could make sure he didn’t accidentally end up making him suspicious about the falsehood of his words. It did feel bad to lie. He didn’t get to worry about that for very long, though, before his thoughts were quickly redirected towards the little feather flurry that descended upon them. He watched wide eyed as the feathers descended. A few moments passed, starstruck by the little spectacle, before finally he felt strangely conscious of his own silence. “… I don’t think squirrels do that.”Yeah, he should’ve just stayed quiet. He + Single + Bi
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SunClan
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Post by Tinyleaf on Jul 18, 2022 4:32:12 GMT -6
"Oh." As the feathers settled around them, a light dusting of pale greys and whites, Tinyleaf couldn't help batting at the few final stragglers, a pleased mrrp escaping him as he managed to entrap one between his mismatched toes. Stamping down on it triumphantly, he craned his neck to sniff at the catch, as if it hadn't been plucked by him a mere few seconds prior. But Tinyleaf never had to conform to reality's whims- For him, even a little feather was a hard fought victory, clearly dropped from the sky just for him! Amused, he slid his paw to his chest, tucking the fluff close lest it blow away. This one, out of all the others, was meant for me. "S-So they don't!" The response was stilted in its own return, a moment of mutual delay between each warrior that may well be the start of a trend. But regardless of the conversation's pace, they'd also shared a lucky event together. That had to mean something, same as the feather he'd caught! "Gee," Tinyleaf continued once the air had cleared, literally. "I still think squirrels taste the best, but I guess birds have some tricks to spare, too! Maybe that was it making a case for itself. Bringing us snow in the middle of a heatwave... Wow! I can't believe it." He shook his head, a general fondness crossing over his face. "I suppose I'm glad you reminded me to bring something. It's made a mini miracle."
But no miracle could last. He hadn't had long to appreciate the new memory he'd formed before he recalled their place by the warriors den, by the other cats who might see him messing around and think him insensitive. It put a whirlwind in his gut, sucked the joy right out of the moment to be eaten whole by the collective murk of the Sunclan camp. Almost self consciously, he pushed the feather a little further against him, concealing it from public view with a paranoid flicker of his eyes and a quiet, awkward hum.
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Post by Honeyflare on Jul 18, 2022 18:06:24 GMT -6
»»——— Honeyflare ———«« Watching as the feathers that had escaped Tinyleaf began to settle on the ground again, Honeyflare swiped his paws to give them a little bit more lift. No harm in enjoying their personal snow a little bit longer. He glanced at Tinyleaf again, only to notice the shift in behavior. Was the squirrel comment really that bad? He gave Tinyleaf a playful nudge. “Well, they can fly so I feel li they must know something or another about mini-miracles. Still, I wonder if the squirrels are going to try to find a way to top that. Not sure how they’d do that, but I wouldn’t have expected the feathers, either.” He purred his amusement, continuing to swat at little feathers to help them regain their altitude. Maybe Tinyleaf just needed more of it? What else did Tinyleaf like? He thought briefly. “I guess when we’re done, we should probably bring some of these feathers to the elders and the nursery. They’re soft enough to be nice in a nest, I think.”He wondered if birds ever used their own softer feathers for their nests. Did birds know to be that resourceful? He wouldn’t worry about that too much. He + Single + Bi
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Post by Tinyleaf on Jul 18, 2022 22:39:18 GMT -6
"Oh?" Lucky for Honeyflare, Tinyleaf was quick to pounce on the opportunity for another distraction- somewhat literally, as he couldn't help his other paw from flashing out to agitate the newly reinvigorated down like a newly made apprentice. Old habits die hard, and no matter how old he got, it was a cat's nature to swat! Feeling a nudge at his side, he affixed its owner with a pleased blink, pleased to have met a fellow clanmate without the need for trappings of sophisticated, stoic dignity that kept them from acting like real cats every once in a while. As much as he was devoted to the path of a warrior, there were times he felt it stifled the true personalities of those around him. Made them tense and afraid to cut loose sometimes... But how could someone be expected to carry out their duty without a bit of freedom to inspire that capacity for responsibility?
It was good Honeyflare hadn't succumbed to that yet. Mainly so that Tinyleaf didn't have to feel embarrassed for having his own moment of weakness, surrounded by exciting, drifting debris just begging to be played with. Not to mention, used for the good of the clan, of course! He was quicker than me to think of that much- How could he doubt himself at all, being that thoughtful? "That's a really good idea! It's not much of them, but maybe if I keep an eye out, I can gather more of them over time..? I'm sure they'd be appreciated."
Then pawing lazily over another feather, Tinyleaf's attention drifted as he remarked, "Squirrels, though.. When you chase them across branches, you'd almost think they could fly. The way they jump so far makes it look like they're gliding. I wonder if that's a form of flight, in itself?"
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Post by Honeyflare on Jul 18, 2022 23:20:55 GMT -6
»»——— Honeyflare ———«« Squirrels... flying? He didn't disagree, but the idea that squirrels' jumping skills were associated with some sort of flight fascinated and confused him. After all, it wasn't as if a squirrel's legs seemed to be any more powerful than a cat's. “As long as they don't learn to fly entirely like birds and bugs and bats do. It'd be weird to have to get used to squirrels just flying off if they heard you coming, or something.” Without wings, though, could they learn full on flight? Probably not, but he liked to imagine the hypothetical situation in which a squirrel simply launched itself to freedom. It was just a little silly. A little fun. “As for the feathers, we can probably just keep it in mind when we eat bird? So we might only have a small few right now, but we can be careful in the future to save some good feathers for nests. Maybe.” He stretched awkwardly, deciding to paw some of the little feathers in question while he was at it. Yeah, those were soft. He + Single + Bi
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Post by Tinyleaf on Jul 20, 2022 11:21:14 GMT -6
Charmed by Honeyflare's visual, he couldn't help the laugh that bubbled out of him, eyes crinkling with humor as he considered the logistics of having to hunt squirrels with the same caution they did birds. With those big, fluffy tails, you could probably hook them out of the sky if you jumped high enough! Part of it was an exciting thought, as much as it'd complicate the chase for everyone. It was probably a good thing it wasn't real... but it didn't stop Tinyleaf finding a silver lining to it.
Then, as if already planning on speeding up the process, Tinyleaf began to paw the feathers as well, this time to begin forming a small pile instead of leaving them scattered about. Humming a single note as he carried out his little chore, he responded, "You're right. It seems fairly to the point, but I hope our clanmates are already doing the same sort of thing... I'd hate to waste some good bedding in the breeze." Then, pausing as he considered the lightness of the pile, he blinked at Honeyflare for another instance of his sage advice. "Where should we keep them so that they don't fly away? Unless we should layer them directly into the nests already?"
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Post by Honeyflare on Jul 20, 2022 18:36:43 GMT -6
»»——— Honeyflare ———«« He was proud that the squirrel musing had humored Tinyleaf, until reality was once more brought up. Oh yeah. They were running the risk of the soft feathers flying off, weren’t they? “Well- you know how medicine cats wrap herbs in those big leaves? Maybe we can grab one to wrap the feathers in, and that way we’ll be able to keep them and add onto them in case we run into anything else like them before we actually go about putting them in nests,” he suggested. He didn’t want to interrupt Tinyleaf’s meal - what if the ants got to it while they were putting away feathers? “Or, I guess I can hold them with my paws, so you can eat your bird before we put them in the nests? Still, it might be kind of hard to hold onto all of them…”He himself didn’t eat bird very often - it felt sort of strange in a way that he knew was silly. This meant, though, that now he wasn’t really sure if there was a typical way to go about handling all the feathers. It was in Clan culture not to waste resources, wasn’t it? He stared at the feathers with an accusatory air, as if they had planned this somehow. Planned to confuse him on procedure. He broke that little spiral quickly, glancing back at Tinyleaf to see what the more experienced warrior would have to say about his propositions. He + Single + Bi
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Post by Tinyleaf on Jul 21, 2022 3:13:20 GMT -6
A leaf! Inspired. Tinyleaf nodded thoughtfully, and then more thoughtful still when Honeyflare pointed out another unexpected flaw in the developing plan. Still, it felt a little disadvantaging to put the other warrior in the position of having to... guard the feathers, or something. In spite of the offer, it was Tinyleaf who'd caused those very feathers to shed! He couldn't well just put another cat in charge of holding them, especially not while he indulged himself. He didn't think he'd even be able to enjoy a meal, knowing it was holding someone else up. Hmm..
Then, as if struck by his own inspiration, the smaller cat perked up, and quickly finished building the pile of feathers. Then, taking the plucked bird with him, he carefully got to his paws and repositioned himself over the deposit, lowering back onto them slowly, slowly... just slow enough that they wouldn't burst out from under him. Just like that, the feathers had been perfectly covered beneath his stomach, safe from any breeze! "I can keep them like this!" Tinyleaf dropped the bird back down before speaking, the familiar pleasure of resolving a problem eliciting a purr in his chest. Then, not wanting to rob Honeyflare of his own role in their mission, he continued, "When we're ready, I'll have you fetch the leaf, and then that'll be that! Well, a few might stick to me, but... I'll just sit up so I can swipe them off!"
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Post by Honeyflare on Jul 21, 2022 21:28:45 GMT -6
»»——— Honeyflare ———«« He watched with surprise as Tinyleaf settled himself over the pile of feathers, keeping them in place under his stomach. Like a bird. He nodded in approval of the plan, impressed with the confidence and ease with which Tinyleaf had gotten there. It was a better version of his plan, that was for sure. Well, that’s one of SunClan’s golden warriors for you, I guess. “Sounds like a good plan! In a sense, I guess you’re testing the feathers for how nice they are to lay on.” With those words, Honeyflare gave Tinyleaf a playful smile and a little purr of amusement. “Do you suppose we’ll be allowed to borrow one from the medicine den, or should I go find us our own when it comes to that?” Just that little last detail. After their plan was in order, Tinyleaf could enjoy his bird and Honeyflare could enjoy his company. A win-win. A welcome reprieve from grieving, but more than that, it was… hopeful? Having a cat he could talk to easily like this made things feel less dark, like there was still his whole life ahead of him to lead. Even if the present company had different ideas on how that path should be walked. Still, he’d take hope wherever he could get it. He + Single + Bi
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Post by Tinyleaf on Jul 21, 2022 23:48:28 GMT -6
Adjusting over his makeshift nest like a mother hen, Tinyleaf cast Honeyflare a smaller smile as his comment- The thought hadn't come to mind until he'd already hunkered down, too focused on the goal of pinning the feathers to have even really noticed the texture. Another detail, covered! Impressed with the younger warrior's forward thinking, Tinyleaf did his best to embrace it by shifting a little more to actually gauge the aforementioned softness. Such small and downy feathers were almost hard to feel in the present quantitude, but they were undeniably quite pleasant on his more exposed underbelly. For kittens, it'd be even better. Well, assuming we don't take so long there's no more kittens to supply for. The currents kits were well on their way to apprenticeship, but Tinyleaf figured that getting a few days use out of them would be better than never using them at all. Besides- that left plenty of time for the next litter to enjoy even more feathers in the future!
Ah, but there was one last ordeal to settle. "Hmm... I wouldn't want you to have to venture out of camp just for a leaf. I'm sure the medicine den can spare one for us!" Tinyleaf mewed with certainty, blinking around camp as if to double check his logic before continuing. "There hasn't been much misfortune with disease lately, so they should be stocked up pretty well! If it does turn out they need every leaf they can get, though, we'll look elsewhere as a last resort."
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