MoonClan
High Position
the long nights you held me through ✧
Posts: 144
Pronouns: she/her
Played By: Sunni
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Post by Pansystar on May 12, 2022 23:50:55 GMT -6
PANSYSTAR Or fade into the oblivion, with the rest of them.The words still echoed in Panystar's mind. Did Sunchaser and Moondancer mean StarClan? Was StarClan even a real place? What did that mean for her family... for everyone's families? It couldn't be true. Panystar had spoken to StarClan. Generations and generations of leader and medicine cats had shared toungues with them. But even so, they never seemed the same as they were in their living forms. They spoke vaguely and acted as though they didn't even understand the prophecies they fortold. As if they were only repeating what they were told. The wall of her stone den had never felt so small as when she paced its peremeter, pondering the fate of her ancestors. She didn't like to think of it, but did Sunchaser and Moondancer do something to them? It seemed so sinister! The way Sunchaser spoke to the living cats. They seemed like they cared. Like the loved their creation. But if that were true, why would they ask the impossible of them? And why now? Why not in the beginning, when the ancient war took place? Could they have seen this coming? Pansystar groaned as the questioned overwhlemed her, like the yearly flooding was all crammed in her brain. Like an emotional apprentice, she finally snapped. Unseathing her claws, she raked them across the wall of her stone den, hissing as she released her frustrations on her den. Defeated, Pansystar fell back into her nest with a groan as her body thudded against the ground. "Make it make sense," she pleaded to no one in particular. CrystalSky Foxlily template created by sunni |
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MoonClan
High Position
head in the clouds, but never the stars
Posts: 144
Pronouns: She/They
Played By: VioCrow
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Post by Foxlily on May 14, 2022 16:35:59 GMT -6
｡☆✼★━━━━ Foxlily ━━━━★✼☆｡ She peered cautiously into the leader’s den, her ears twitching with the lingering sound of claws on stone - primarily because of her concern as to what it meant for Pansystar’s wellbeing. They coughed gently, hoping to not spook her too badly. “Pansystar? Are you alright?”, she asked cautiously, not yet daring to step foot into the den uninvited. “I heard you pacing around your den, are you… are you still thinking about the Gathering?”Foxlily felt as if she knew the answer to that question already. Who wasn’t still thinking about the Gathering? Even cats who hadn’t gone were likely to have the concept lodged into their minds, persisting like a fish’s ribs caught in one’s teeth but as foreboding as the clouds just before the floods. It still made her fur shiver to think about. She could only imagine how that would effect a leader. “Do you want to talk about it?”, she offered gently, gesturing with her ears the spot just next to where Pansystar currently laid. |
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MoonClan
High Position
the long nights you held me through ✧
Posts: 144
Pronouns: she/her
Played By: Sunni
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Post by Pansystar on May 25, 2022 19:20:19 GMT -6
PANSYSTAR Pansystar looked up when the medicine cat entered her den. Oh stars, had she been that loud? "Sorry, I didn't mean to disturb you, Foxlily." If she had duistrubed her, there was bound to be others she had disturbed too. Hopefully, nobody's mad. I can't imagine anyone can sleep after all that.
The other feline brought up the gathering, and Pansystar sighed. They offered to talk about it, and Pansystar nodded her head. "Yeah, I think I would. It looked like Foxlily wanted to sit with her, and Pansystar nodded her head to signify that she was okay with it. "Can you believe that? Those... things! What they ask of us? I don't think it's possible. And they said we'll 'fade into the oblivion' or something? Is that what happens to StarClan?" her eyes widened. "Do you think there even is a StarClan anymore?" template created by sunni |
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MoonClan
High Position
head in the clouds, but never the stars
Posts: 144
Pronouns: She/They
Played By: VioCrow
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Post by Foxlily on May 27, 2022 23:13:52 GMT -6
｡☆✼★━━━━ Foxlily ━━━━★✼☆｡ She dipped her head appreciatively as she settled near Pansystar, listening intently. “I was actually going to your den to see how you were faring anyway, so don’t worry about disturbing me,” she reassured to the best of her ability. The actual talk of the Gathering, though… a response to that didn’t come as easily. As a medicine cat, shouldn’t they have an answer to that? “I think,” Foxlily began cautiously, picking through her own thoughts before her own anxieties swept her away, “that StarClan is perhaps just more… complicated than we had initially thought. With what StarClan says, knows, and does, I find it difficult to think it was all a hoax… but it does sound like quite the mystery. How far back does StarClan really go? What happens to the cats who have been there the longest? I couldn’t say, but their words raise the questions.” They paused. Those words weren’t exactly reassuring. Foxlily regretted that, but would sugarcoating her thoughts and the reality of the situation really help anyone? Likely not. “As for what they ask of us… it’s hard to swallow. You know? To stop the Clans’ fighting, I only imagine being one Clan would truly stop it, but could that really simply erase the river that has us physically divided? It’d be an odd setup. There would be a lot of work to do, but, if we’re willing… I don’t think it’d be impossible. Then again, SunClan cats have a tendency for the stubborn.” Her relation with optimism was complicated, a hopeful cat who could only ever think of the worst. What was a cat to do in a time like this? Would enough SunClan cats be willing to seek peace to make it truly possible? She couldn’t say. “I think it’s important in moments like this to focus on what we can do. Still! It’s good to clear your mind and get out the stress.” |
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MoonClan
High Position
the long nights you held me through ✧
Posts: 144
Pronouns: she/her
Played By: Sunni
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Post by Pansystar on Jun 12, 2022 22:43:49 GMT -6
PANSYSTAR Pansystar faintly smiled at Foxlily's initail response. It was sweet of the other feline to want to check on her, and Pansystar was especially appreciative it was her and not some cat else.
Foxlily went on and on about the possibilities of what the gathering could mean. And while Pansystar was happy to have her insight, she had to admit that some of the explanations the medicine cat was imagining scared her. Especially the idea that the river that divided them could disappear.
MoonClan relied on that river's ranks to feed the wetland that made up their home. Even with their seasonal flooding, Pansystar couldn't imagine the disastrous effects losing the river could have on their territory. With that gone, I don't think we'd have a choice in becoming the same Clan.
But it was Foxlily's last thought that resonated with her the most. There would always be things out of her control and she needed to be okay with that if she truly wanted to lead her Clan through all of this. It was easier said than done as most things were for Pansystar, but she found the thought to be comforting nonetheless. "Thank you, Foxlily," she meowed, a soft smile on her maw. "I think I needed to hear that. Crazy theories included," her last comment was a light teasing jab at the other feline.
"How are you taking all of this? I know it was a lot for everyone, but I can't imagine what it's like for a medicine cat." template created by sunni |
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MoonClan
High Position
head in the clouds, but never the stars
Posts: 144
Pronouns: She/They
Played By: VioCrow
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Post by Foxlily on Jun 13, 2022 4:03:21 GMT -6
｡☆✼★━━━━ Foxlily ━━━━★✼☆｡ Their ears perked, hearing Pansystar speak, and they couldn’t help but giggle upon hearing her response. “Well, maybe making a bridge would be more feasible - and less destructive,” Foxlily mused. “I’m glad to be able to help in some way, though. Sometimes I worry the extent of emotional medicine I can offer is poppy seeds.”She kneaded the ground as she thought over Pansystar’s question, suddenly unnerved to put her own feelings to words. “It’s… stressful,” she admitted slowly, tucking her fidgety paws under herself. “I’ve always felt tense about StarClan - their numbers would be fewer if they didn’t encrypt their every word - and yet, every time I sleep I hope to dream with them and gain some sort of comfort, some sort of insight. I wonder, often, if the answer to the future lies in the past. It’s got me wrapped up in my thoughts more than usual, to say the least.” They exhaled deeply, shaking their head as if trying to clear out their thoughts. “I know all we can do is our best. Both Clans will need to compromise and collaborate. I’m trying not to let the questions wreak havoc on me so I can focus on finding out what I can do to help us -all of us.” Her green gaze fixed itself on some invisible item, consequentially making everything else blurry and startling herself out of her thoughts. She laughed nervously with a wave of her tail. “Oh! There I go again. I suppose the long and short of it is that, really, I’m stressed and conflicted - much like most cats. I’ve never wanted StarClan’s guidance so badly, and yet I suppose I keep folding in on myself as if the answer’s tucked away in my own mind somewhere. I know I’ll be okay, though. Cats I care about are here, right now, and I know we’ll do our best for each other.” |
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MoonClan
High Position
the long nights you held me through ✧
Posts: 144
Pronouns: she/her
Played By: Sunni
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Post by Pansystar on Jul 2, 2022 23:00:55 GMT -6
PANSYSTAR Pansystar was thankful to have Foxlily her with her. Everything seemed more doable with her around. "Thank you," Pansystar meowed. She touched her nose to Foxlily's shoulder, feeling comforted being closer to the medicine cat.
"You know, if we had the time and resources for a bridge, it wouldn't be a half bad idea." the brown tabby sat up, stretched out her paws. It felt impossible, but Pansystar had a feeling that Foxliyl was right. With enough compromise they should be able to fix everything. But even that begged the question of what "fixed" would look like.
"Do you think they actually want us to become one Clan? I just can't imagine it."
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MoonClan
High Position
head in the clouds, but never the stars
Posts: 144
Pronouns: She/They
Played By: VioCrow
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Post by Foxlily on Jul 5, 2022 23:21:00 GMT -6
｡☆✼★━━━━ Foxlily ━━━━★✼☆｡ Foxlily wrinkled her nose at the question. “I certainly hope not. That's asking a bit much, at least as an immediate thing. I suppose it's not unfeasible that if we make peace, it might happen over time, but that seems unrealistic to expect us to become one big Clan immediately.” She tried to imagine what that would look like. Would they need one camp? Where would they house so many cats? Surely their combined numbers were too large for something like that. How would a singular Clan function with two camps though? It didn't make much sense to them, and Foxlily dramatically threw herself on the floor, rolling over to stare at the top of the den with an exaggerated sigh. “Our Clans would be too big for one camp, wouldn't they? You couldn't have two camps, either, because how would you make sure everything was unified? Would there be one leader or two then? There's so much that wouldn't add up, trying to merge like that...” Like a bolt of lightning they raised their head to look at Pansystar. “Unless there just wasn't a leader and we all had to work together somehow- that doesn't make a lot of sense, either though, especially if you go back to the camp thing.” She dropped her head back to the ground. “I think if they're reasonable, they'll accept peace between our Clans. There needs to be something authentic to our lives, anyway, and I can't think of a very good reason that leaders would get nine lives if entities like that were that opposed to everything about our way of life.” Their tail swished in thought, getting somewhat sidetracked. “How long do you think a bridge would take to make anyway? Too bad we can't just roll some very big rocks or something...” |
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